Monday, November 13, 2006
HEY PEEPZ!!!!! its been a while since i update my blog.. been super bz.. so sorry ya all..... sometink really big happen 2 me on sat.....
I FOUGHT WIF MY BESTFREN...... let me name the person X. me n X noe each oter since we were in ite(not gonna say where coz don really wan 2 tell u guyz)... from start ar kite memang rapat.... we were sooo close tat at many occasion ppl tend to tink tat we are a couple... but no.... we were juz really gd frenz.... i really tot we could be BFF(best Friend FOreva).. taP sayang, perangai dier berubah dgn tiupan angin.... i really didnt take notice when X's attitude change towards me... at first i tot is was juz notink but as times fly, his attitude really take a 360 deg turn... the X i noe was a sweet n understanding fren.... suddenly he change to the X tat i don noe.... very rude and don even care if i get hurt by wateva X say... like HELOO!!! im also a human being wif feeling.... suddenly it came 2 me tat X really change.... i confronted X when he was online... i ask y the sudden change of attitude.... wat X say really broke my heart....."i change becoz of u...." huh??!!! wat was tat suppose 2 mean... im responsible 4 the changes??? X say his personality change becoz of me... becoz i called his home 2 ask him if he were coming to sch or not.... he change becoz his mother scolded him early in the morning becoz i call 2 ask his mother 2 wake him up...... is it a crime 4 me 2 c 2 my bestfren'z well being??? is it wrong 4 me 2 make sure he don get debar from our examination??? isit wrong 4 me 2 care 4 my bestfren????? i don tink its fair 4 him 2 blame me... maybe he don look at me the same way he look at me when we 1st meet.... im really dissapointed n hurt coz i got blame 4 trying 2 look out for my BESTFREN..... now i don even noe how 2 look at him without remembering wat he said 2 me.... it hurt me soo juz tinking bout it...... im really hoping he finds wateva hes trying 2 find in life.... coz i tink from now onwards the friendship tat we have had burn to the ground.....
2 X if ur reading tis im sorry if i done stuff tat might made u mad at me.... i don tink i deserve the title of becoming ur BESTFREN.... giv it 2 someone tat u tink might not make u chage ur attitude.....
im gonna miss u X.... wat past can't be change.... as im too hurt by ur action n wordz...... *sob*sob*
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